not-so-random thoughts

Some thoughts have been swimming in my head since last week, especially since our little Thursday girls' night in post-surgery exam. I know I should be reading Harrison's right now for our three IICBSs tomorrow (hey Harrison's I'm beginning to like you even more) but oh well...

1. A lot of things could happen in 12 months. Or even 6 months. Or even in a period shorter than that. I miss how simple things were a year ago. 
2. I would like to believe that I am a relatively optimistic person but there are times that I cannot fool myself into thinking that things will turn out ok. I tried that so that I would be able to convince others as well but then I realized that I was just kidding myself, big time.
3. I've realized that in life, there really are just a few people that one can trust. And now, I'm having second thoughts whether certain people whom I thought I could entrust my life with are really that trustworthy. Sure I could forgive but sometimes, it's just so difficult when the trust that I've given has been broken. All I could say is: Thanks for shattering my belief in everybody's innate goodness and sorry for believing that you too, being a human being, are innately good.
4. Indeed it doesn't matter how long you've known a person because at some point, they will surprise you. Just pray to the high heavens (or whatever/whoever you want to dedicate your prayers to) that the surprise will be a good one.
5. Is commitment a continuum? Because for me, it's more like the action potential of neurons-- all or none. It's either you're in or you're out.
6. What is cheating? No really, what is it? And what pushes people to do it?
7. Some relationships were meant to last until our last breath while others are meant to just last in certain periods of our lives.
8. Boundaries, boundaries, boundaries. Medical school is a dangerous playground.
9. We don't have to act on every urge that we get. That's what the pre-frontal cortex is for. Sadly, not everyone fully utilizes this part of the brain which sets us apart from the rest of kingdom animalia.
10. It's innocent and harmless until others find out.